Time to start driving the car.

There’s one thing that I’ve struggled with for a long time. It’s prevented me from accomplishing to much. It’s hurt me in my job.

Self doubt.

It pops up whenever I have a good idea and want to get something great done. It pops up and tells me that I won’t do it well. It says that I’m going to fail at what I do. It tells me I’m not good enough.

This has prevented me from doing so many different incredible things.

I thought it would prevent me from failing, but it’s actually made me fail even more than I could imagine.

I’ve always wanted to make money from photography. The one reason why I haven’t is that the little self-doubt inside me tells me that there are already enough photographers and that I wouldn’t be able to bring anything new. It tells me that I’m not any better than everyone else. I wouldn’t make money. No one would like my photos. I would be a failure.

None of this is true. It’s the self-doubt voice inside me.

Last night I was reading Overlap by Sean McCabe and there was a line that just hit me like a slap in the face:

True failure is never starting at all.

Sean nailed it. By listening to my self-doubt voice, I’ve actually failed more because I’ve never even started to go anywhere. I tweeted out this quote yesterday and Sean responded to me with another gem:

You can’t steer a parked car.

Yep. So much yep. When I look at things with this viewpoint, I can see that I actually fail when I *don’t* try something new.

It’s time to stop believing my self-doubt. It’s time to start driving the car.


Trying to tackle budgeting.

It seems like over the past month I’ve started to make an effort to become a better version of myself. It wasn’t something I decided or planned to do, I think I just sort of fell in to it. I’m always trying to be better at everything I do, but lately I’ve been taking steps to actually accomplish that.

The biggest problem I’ve had over the last 10 years has been handling money. I’m just not super good at it. I can plan really well for it. I love math and can make out a great budget, but I never stick to it. My problem was always death by a thousand transactions. I never bought large things, but a bunch of small stuff. A book or movie here and there. Nothing really over $19.99. Those purchases add up over time. They are sort of like ants: one ant here and there aren’t too bad, but get 1,000 ants together and you could die!

So I finally broke down and got You Need A Budget. It’s been almost unanimously received as one of the greatest and simplest tools for making a budget.

Mint was too passive for me, I needed a service that made me work harder.

YNAB was it.

It took some getting used to, but once you figure out how the system works, it’s amazing. Keep in mind, I’m only a few days in, but I love it already.

YNAB’s main catch is that you can’t budget money you don’t have. They call that forecasting. So I can’t budget for next month because I don’t have that money. Seems simple, but it makes sense. I always wanted to budget in advance, but the problem is that it makes me feel like I have more money NOW. So I would spend more NOW knowing that more is coming behind it. YNAB says to only budget with the money that is in your account. It’s revolutionary for me. And so far it’s working.

I’ll update again after a few weeks to see how it’s going, but so far it’s really working.

One small reason why iCloud can’t fully replace Dropbox for me.

I love Dropbox and I love iCloud. Recently iCloud made a random change that Apple usually doesn’t do. They became the cheaper option.

Right now I pay $9.99 a month for 1TB on Dropbox. It’s been great. No problems. It works just like I want it to. Apple just one upped them. They now have 2TB for $9.99 a month. Double the storage for the same price and you can even share that storage with family members. That’s excellent. Apple rarely makes themselves the cheaper option, especially with cloud storage.

But I have one small dilemma. I can’t share files easily with other people. Right now, in Dropbox, I have tons of photos I use for work. If someone wants a photo or a folder of my photos I just send them the share link and they download the files they want.

You can’t easily do that with iCloud. Some say you can copy the link in the safari browser and email that to people, but it doesn’t quite work right. And sure, you could mail drop a file to someone, but that’s not the best way for me to do it.

I’m sure this is something that Apple could easily implement and they are probably working on it as we speak. But right now, without any way to easily share a file with someone, I can’t get rid of Dropbox.